I know I mentioned a couple of weeks ago that I was feeling a bit down but I am going to be honest to you and finally to myself that I have been very down.
There have been so many little things that I suppose have just gathered together and added to that the extra pain I have right now, that seems to have made me feel like this way.
Now I am writing about this I can identify some of the little things. With the beautiful weather we have, I have heard everyone outside sitting, talking with neighbours, family and friends. I so longed for it to be me just sitting outside, reading and writing. I also smelt, near dinner time as the heat lessened slightly, the bar-b-cues, and I could feel myself thinking back to having bar-b-cues ourselves or going to friends and family for a lovely night, sitting outside, eating and of course the best part, having a few glasses or even bottles of wine. I have to admit I really miss drinking wine. I also miss just jumping in the car with the kids and just going somewhere, and of course there are so many other things I miss.
I suppose what I am trying to say is that everyone who suffers from chronic pain will miss some things from their lives that they used to love doing but at the moment can no longer do.
Then we have the pain to cope with also. At the moment I am having a bit of a battle with my pain, but it is a battle I hope to win. I will not bore you with the details.
So when you add together the things we miss and the pain we have to fight each day, it is only normal that every so often we find ourselves feeling down.
I am trying my hardest to stop feeling the way I do and I think *touch wood* that with the baby steps I am taking, that soon, I will find myself not feeling as down.
I returned to Facebook this week and I would like to thank everyone for my warm welcome back. Hopefully my next step, going back to playing WoW, will happen very soon.
The point I am trying to make here, is this, Unpaid Carers, Family and Friends, do not be alarmed if your Caree, Family Member or Friend feels down, just keep an extra eye on them and although I am not a doctor, my prescription would be a lot more extra hugs.
Until next time, take care
P.s Here is some good news, with the help of my SKYCIG, things are going well with my giving up smoking and fingers crossed it will stay this way. I will update you the next time I post. I also want to thank everyone who is supporting me. It really helps so very much.