Who Is That Person In The Mirror?


I found myself having to look in the mirror a few days ago, something I normally avoid at all costs. I looked in but did not have a clue who it was looking back at me.

 

The first thing I noticed was my eyes; they had lost the sparkle that was normally there. Then I looked at my neck, only to see I had no neck anymore. My goitre has swollen so much due to my Thyroid Gland not working properly anymore.

 

Then I saw my body and have to admit I cried. I had been told that some of my medications would make me gain weight. It did seem weird as I am hardly eating at the moment. They really were not joking about the weight gain and of course I cannot exercise very much at the moment. The pain makes it slightly hard and when I am outside, I am in my wheelchair and until I can get a stair lift, I am mainly marooned upstairs. So my exercise is walking to and from the bathroom once a day, as I use my commode in my bedroom the rest of the time.

 

So be prepared, something I never was, that some of your medications will change you on the outside, but as long as your mind and voice is still there, that is all that really matters to begin with.

 

I know as long as I have my mind and voice, I will try my hardest to keep talking and hopefully help at least one person and to let them know they do not need to go through anything alone.

Until next time, take Care,

Mrs G!

P.S. Still good news with giving up smoking. “Touch Wood” it will stay this way!!!

When A Little Branch Appears….Hold On!


I have been really down and ill the past couple of weeks, hence why I have not posted as much. Touch wood, however, I think I have hit rock bottom and am starting to climb back up, I am trying not to go too fast, or I may end up crashing back down again.

 

Mr G and  I find ourselves childless for a few days, I think I let go of the I am fine girls honest sign and on the first day I slept on and off all day and night. It did me a lot of good.

 

I don’t know about any of you but my appetite grew legs and left me some time ago now. However, after my long, long sleep, I woke up feeling hungry. This was amazing as it has been so long since I actually wanted to eat. I had some sandwiches around 10am (ish) and then was totally flabbergasted, when around 6.30pm (ish), I again felt hungry, so again I ate. This eating thing is in the very early stages, as it has only happened the past couple of days.

 

I have jumped on to this tiny new branch and am holding on tightly. I really want it to work, for many reasons, one being my tablets may work better and another reason is my bowel may just stop being lazy and work properly again.

 

I am maybe thinking way too fast but just by feeling hungry, which to most people is natural, I can see so many ways it could help me. So I am now clinging for dear life on to this tiny branch, praying it will become stronger, which would make me just that little stronger also.

Take Care

Mrs G 

The Visit!


So here I am sitting, consumed by nerves, because after four years of waiting and trying everything possible to make it happen sooner. Today is finally the day for my first social worker visit,  I just pray Mr G does not tell too many corny jokes.

 

There will be many things to discuss but again I pray that amongst the many things are the two major adaptations to the house!

 

Watching Mr G going around tidying, cleaning and hovering, I feel ashamed, embarrassed and hurt that I can do NOTHING to help him. Right now I feel totally and utterly useless and the lowest of the low.

 

What a surprise she is late and I am now visibly shaking with nerves. One thing I have learnt since becoming ill is you have to wait for everything.

 

Well now she has gone and she was such a lovely, warm, understanding person and wow everything has changed at the Social Work Department. I had to tell her my life story, so she could get to know me before I got ill and could also see if I meet the Social Work Department’s new criteria. Mr G and I were left with a form to fill out and return as soon as possible. Now we have to think of things that will make my life much better than it is right now. Then once she knows which way everything will go, she will come back and visit again and let us know if I meet their criteria. So be prepared for many more posts, I would love for you all to find out exactly what is going to happen also.

 

Until next time, take care

Mrs G 

List of Possible Uses for Distraction Therapy!


Playing Solitaire with real cards or online, I play Forty Thieves to help me every now and then.

Knitting, Crotchet, Sewing, Tapestry, Cross Stitch. Drawing, Sketching, Painting, I can’t do any of these things, so I thought I might try an adult Painting by Numbers, slightly harder than the children’s version.

If possible you could try Baking, I can no longer do anything like that and felt a huge burden to my family, so I took over the finances, it helps lessen the pain for a little while but more importantly, I feel I am contributing slightly to helping the family.

Games on Facebook, keeping in touch with friends on Facebook, possibly tracing back down your Family Tree, learn more History from a period that interests you, collecting anything that interests you also.

Swimming can be a great help but beware some people experience feeling extremely heavy and severe pain on leaving the pool. If you are well enough perhaps learning Thai-Chi would be helpful also.

Singing and playing music or just listening to calming music can help. Reading, writing, this can be done in a variety of ways, writing letters to friends, writing fiction or more towards factual, writing poetry.

I find I get short pain relief by making lists of everything to be done the next day, I also found a way to bolster my spirits was to make lists of things I could do mainly alone but sometimes with a small amount of help from my carer.

Play board games with your carer, family or friends, for example: Chess, Backgammon, Trivial Pursuits, the list can be a long one. Meditation, if not known already is well worth learning, as it can be a great way of helping to relieve pain.

To begin with some of these things, as already mentioned may cause a degree of extra pain but if you feel that you are enjoying yourself it may well be worth continuing; the extra pain should not last too long. However if your pain gets a lot worse you may well have to stop.

These are just a few suggestions on things that may distract your pain. I really hope that they are of some use, even if it is just to give you an idea.

Until next time, take care.

Mrs G.

Ps. making this list not only distracted my pain but gave a couple of new ideas I can try. I am sure I will tell you about how it goes some time…