GYP!


I think I have one of the most sensitive dogs, I am sure he could have become a guide dog for the blind or a hearing dog, if we had not rescued him when he was just a one year old puppy. The reason I am sure of it, is watching what he has starting doing here, at our home, for me!

 

I can no longer try and convince Mr G the pain is not so bad today, as Gyp is actually afraid of pain and will not come in to our room if it is a bad pain day. On other days, he tries so hard to be brave. He comes up on to the bed and gives me cuddles but he trembles and shakes the whole time.

 

The most amazing thing he has started to do is to take action if I have a black out. He will start barking or nudging Mr G, until he comes to check on me. Mr G has learnt the different bark he uses now. We are just amazed and so proud of him.

 

I would say that Gyp, my amazing dog, is now a part of the Carer’s team in our family. It really is astounding how dogs can help in so many ways.  Being the eyes for someone who has problems with their sight, being ears for someone who has problems with their hearing and helping people who have problems using parts of their body. They also become much loved family pets. I know I count myself extremely lucky to have Gyp watch over me and believe me I make sure he knows how much he is loved by everyone in the family. I could not resist letting you see how cute he is!

My sleepy puppy

 

Until next time, take care

Mrs G!

 

Ps. Had a rough week last week, really wanted a cigarette, but I managed to stand firm, so things are still going well and your support really helps me very much. So many thanks.

 

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Who Is That Person In The Mirror?


I found myself having to look in the mirror a few days ago, something I normally avoid at all costs. I looked in but did not have a clue who it was looking back at me.

 

The first thing I noticed was my eyes; they had lost the sparkle that was normally there. Then I looked at my neck, only to see I had no neck anymore. My goitre has swollen so much due to my Thyroid Gland not working properly anymore.

 

Then I saw my body and have to admit I cried. I had been told that some of my medications would make me gain weight. It did seem weird as I am hardly eating at the moment. They really were not joking about the weight gain and of course I cannot exercise very much at the moment. The pain makes it slightly hard and when I am outside, I am in my wheelchair and until I can get a stair lift, I am mainly marooned upstairs. So my exercise is walking to and from the bathroom once a day, as I use my commode in my bedroom the rest of the time.

 

So be prepared, something I never was, that some of your medications will change you on the outside, but as long as your mind and voice is still there, that is all that really matters to begin with.

 

I know as long as I have my mind and voice, I will try my hardest to keep talking and hopefully help at least one person and to let them know they do not need to go through anything alone.

Until next time, take Care,

Mrs G!

P.S. Still good news with giving up smoking. “Touch Wood” it will stay this way!!!

Down but don’t count me out!!


I know I mentioned a couple of weeks ago that I was feeling a bit down but I am going to be honest to you and finally to myself that I have been very down.

 

There have been so many little things that I suppose have just gathered together and added to that the extra pain I have right now, that seems to have made me feel like this way.

 

Now I am writing about this I can identify some of the little things. With the beautiful weather we have, I have heard everyone outside sitting, talking with neighbours, family and friends. I so longed for it to be me just sitting outside, reading and writing. I also smelt, near dinner time as the heat lessened slightly, the bar-b-cues, and I could feel myself thinking back to having bar-b-cues ourselves or going to friends and family for a lovely night, sitting outside, eating and of course the best part, having a few glasses or even bottles of wine. I have to admit I really miss drinking wine. I also miss just jumping in the car with the kids and just going somewhere, and of course there are so many other things I miss.

 

I suppose what I am trying to say is that everyone who suffers from chronic pain will miss some things from their lives that they used to love doing but at the moment can no longer do.

 

Then we have the pain to cope with also. At the moment I am having a bit of a battle with my pain, but it is a battle I hope to win. I will not bore you with the details.

 

So when you add together the things we miss and the pain we have to fight each day, it is only normal that every so often we find ourselves feeling down.

 

I am trying my hardest to stop feeling the way I do and I think *touch wood* that with the baby steps I am taking, that soon, I will find myself not feeling as down.

 

I returned to Facebook this week and I would like to thank everyone for my warm welcome back. Hopefully my next step, going back to playing WoW, will happen very soon.

 

The point I am trying to make here, is this, Unpaid Carers, Family and Friends, do not be alarmed if your Caree, Family Member or Friend feels down, just keep an extra eye on them and although I am not a doctor, my prescription would be a lot more extra hugs.

Until next time, take care

Mrs G!

 

P.s Here is some good news, with the help of my SKYCIG, things are going well with my giving up smoking and fingers crossed it will stay this way. I will update you the next time I post. I also want to thank everyone who is supporting me. It really helps so very much.

When A Little Branch Appears….Hold On!


I have been really down and ill the past couple of weeks, hence why I have not posted as much. Touch wood, however, I think I have hit rock bottom and am starting to climb back up, I am trying not to go too fast, or I may end up crashing back down again.

 

Mr G and  I find ourselves childless for a few days, I think I let go of the I am fine girls honest sign and on the first day I slept on and off all day and night. It did me a lot of good.

 

I don’t know about any of you but my appetite grew legs and left me some time ago now. However, after my long, long sleep, I woke up feeling hungry. This was amazing as it has been so long since I actually wanted to eat. I had some sandwiches around 10am (ish) and then was totally flabbergasted, when around 6.30pm (ish), I again felt hungry, so again I ate. This eating thing is in the very early stages, as it has only happened the past couple of days.

 

I have jumped on to this tiny new branch and am holding on tightly. I really want it to work, for many reasons, one being my tablets may work better and another reason is my bowel may just stop being lazy and work properly again.

 

I am maybe thinking way too fast but just by feeling hungry, which to most people is natural, I can see so many ways it could help me. So I am now clinging for dear life on to this tiny branch, praying it will become stronger, which would make me just that little stronger also.

Take Care

Mrs G 

An Inspirational Man; Giles Duley!


I watched a documentary on Giles Duley last night. I was feeling pretty fed up as I had fallen again and everything ached. However after the first five minutes of the documentary, I was inspired and knew my next blog should be about Giles Duley.

 

He gave up being a fashion photographer, to travel the world and document the stories of the forgotten people. His travelling took him to Afghanistan, to take photos, not just of the injured soldiers but he also planned to take photographs of the injured civilians and enable their stories to hopefully be listened to more.

 

Whilst on foot patrol on one of his last days with the 75th Cavalry Regiment (United States) he stepped on an IED. From that moment on Giles Duley’s life changed completely, he suffered catastrophic injuries, losing both his legs and his left arm.

 

When he arrived back in Britain, he was put straight away into an intensive care unit. During his time in there he nearly lost his battle to survive on more than one occasion. It took quite a few operations over several months before he could even think about rehabilitation.

He went back to Afghanistan to finish what he started, to meet and photograph civilians who have been caught up in this battle also.

 

The inspiration of this man has happened in many ways. However, to me, it was helping a man keep up trying to walk on his two prosthetic legs. Before the end of the programme, the Afghan civilian was walking faster than Giles.

 

This a link to some of his work. I hope, like me, you find this man amazing with all the pain he must have coped with and maybe still does.

 

Thanks for taking the time to read this

Mrs G.

The Visit!


So here I am sitting, consumed by nerves, because after four years of waiting and trying everything possible to make it happen sooner. Today is finally the day for my first social worker visit,  I just pray Mr G does not tell too many corny jokes.

 

There will be many things to discuss but again I pray that amongst the many things are the two major adaptations to the house!

 

Watching Mr G going around tidying, cleaning and hovering, I feel ashamed, embarrassed and hurt that I can do NOTHING to help him. Right now I feel totally and utterly useless and the lowest of the low.

 

What a surprise she is late and I am now visibly shaking with nerves. One thing I have learnt since becoming ill is you have to wait for everything.

 

Well now she has gone and she was such a lovely, warm, understanding person and wow everything has changed at the Social Work Department. I had to tell her my life story, so she could get to know me before I got ill and could also see if I meet the Social Work Department’s new criteria. Mr G and I were left with a form to fill out and return as soon as possible. Now we have to think of things that will make my life much better than it is right now. Then once she knows which way everything will go, she will come back and visit again and let us know if I meet their criteria. So be prepared for many more posts, I would love for you all to find out exactly what is going to happen also.

 

Until next time, take care

Mrs G 

Changes that can happen to your life.


Before I was ill, I was able to do so much with friends. Going out, helping at my children’s primary school, having coffee with friends. Attending family get togethers, being able to be at celebrations with family and also with friends.

 

 Then slowly, as I could attend less and less gatherings, the visits from family and friends got less and less. Phone calls also dried up as I could not concentrate on the phone more and more.

 

I recently got so excited when my in laws sent an invitation to their Golden Wedding Anniversary, I was so determined I would attend. I bought myself a new dress and hair dye to hide all the grey hair. Sadly I have to admit I will not be able to attend, but I will make sure Mr G and our youngest daughter will be there. I think our eldest daughter is taking a turn at Mummy-sitting.

 

Not being able to attend made me realise how little contact I have with friends and family any more. It is so sad but something I just need to deal with.

 

I have however made some extremely good friends from online gaming. They have known me since I have been ill and since I have gotten worse. They are always there for me, one more than any other. I have also made a new friend through Mr G and would be lost without her at times.

 

So be prepared, however not everyone loses as much as some, you may lose some friends but I know for certain you will make new friends, who may be able to understand and help you managed your pain and how to get through it one day at a time.

 

Until next time, take care

Mrs G