Down but don’t count me out!!


I know I mentioned a couple of weeks ago that I was feeling a bit down but I am going to be honest to you and finally to myself that I have been very down.

 

There have been so many little things that I suppose have just gathered together and added to that the extra pain I have right now, that seems to have made me feel like this way.

 

Now I am writing about this I can identify some of the little things. With the beautiful weather we have, I have heard everyone outside sitting, talking with neighbours, family and friends. I so longed for it to be me just sitting outside, reading and writing. I also smelt, near dinner time as the heat lessened slightly, the bar-b-cues, and I could feel myself thinking back to having bar-b-cues ourselves or going to friends and family for a lovely night, sitting outside, eating and of course the best part, having a few glasses or even bottles of wine. I have to admit I really miss drinking wine. I also miss just jumping in the car with the kids and just going somewhere, and of course there are so many other things I miss.

 

I suppose what I am trying to say is that everyone who suffers from chronic pain will miss some things from their lives that they used to love doing but at the moment can no longer do.

 

Then we have the pain to cope with also. At the moment I am having a bit of a battle with my pain, but it is a battle I hope to win. I will not bore you with the details.

 

So when you add together the things we miss and the pain we have to fight each day, it is only normal that every so often we find ourselves feeling down.

 

I am trying my hardest to stop feeling the way I do and I think *touch wood* that with the baby steps I am taking, that soon, I will find myself not feeling as down.

 

I returned to Facebook this week and I would like to thank everyone for my warm welcome back. Hopefully my next step, going back to playing WoW, will happen very soon.

 

The point I am trying to make here, is this, Unpaid Carers, Family and Friends, do not be alarmed if your Caree, Family Member or Friend feels down, just keep an extra eye on them and although I am not a doctor, my prescription would be a lot more extra hugs.

Until next time, take care

Mrs G!

 

P.s Here is some good news, with the help of my SKYCIG, things are going well with my giving up smoking and fingers crossed it will stay this way. I will update you the next time I post. I also want to thank everyone who is supporting me. It really helps so very much.

An Inspirational Man; Giles Duley!


I watched a documentary on Giles Duley last night. I was feeling pretty fed up as I had fallen again and everything ached. However after the first five minutes of the documentary, I was inspired and knew my next blog should be about Giles Duley.

 

He gave up being a fashion photographer, to travel the world and document the stories of the forgotten people. His travelling took him to Afghanistan, to take photos, not just of the injured soldiers but he also planned to take photographs of the injured civilians and enable their stories to hopefully be listened to more.

 

Whilst on foot patrol on one of his last days with the 75th Cavalry Regiment (United States) he stepped on an IED. From that moment on Giles Duley’s life changed completely, he suffered catastrophic injuries, losing both his legs and his left arm.

 

When he arrived back in Britain, he was put straight away into an intensive care unit. During his time in there he nearly lost his battle to survive on more than one occasion. It took quite a few operations over several months before he could even think about rehabilitation.

He went back to Afghanistan to finish what he started, to meet and photograph civilians who have been caught up in this battle also.

 

The inspiration of this man has happened in many ways. However, to me, it was helping a man keep up trying to walk on his two prosthetic legs. Before the end of the programme, the Afghan civilian was walking faster than Giles.

 

This a link to some of his work. I hope, like me, you find this man amazing with all the pain he must have coped with and maybe still does.

 

Thanks for taking the time to read this

Mrs G.

Mr G’s Salon!!


My husband has learnt to do so many new things since my illness began, he is now, of course perfected the art of laundry, got fed up of my love of washing dishes, so we acquired a dishwasher. The art of folding and hanging his laundry to such a perfect degree, that my second love, ironing, is hardly ever required.

 

Mr G’s cooking in all reality beats mine hands down so damn much. His soup making, stews, roasts, bread making and to top it off his bloody jam making skills, make me so damn jealous.

 

His hunting down bargains while shopping also beat mine I am ashamed to admit. Unless he shops with our eldest daughter, his weekly shopping means I can actually save money!!

 

Now he has yet again excelled at another new talent, Mr G to my utter and total amazement, not only cut my hair, he managed to thin it quite a bit also.

 

Although he has amassed all the above new talents, his biggest and best new talent his being an unpaid carer. He finds this a shock that he is able too care for me. I however never ever doubted he could do this, as I have always trusted in him and please believe me that I have total respect in every unpaid carer.

Take care.

Mrs G.

The Visit!


So here I am sitting, consumed by nerves, because after four years of waiting and trying everything possible to make it happen sooner. Today is finally the day for my first social worker visit,  I just pray Mr G does not tell too many corny jokes.

 

There will be many things to discuss but again I pray that amongst the many things are the two major adaptations to the house!

 

Watching Mr G going around tidying, cleaning and hovering, I feel ashamed, embarrassed and hurt that I can do NOTHING to help him. Right now I feel totally and utterly useless and the lowest of the low.

 

What a surprise she is late and I am now visibly shaking with nerves. One thing I have learnt since becoming ill is you have to wait for everything.

 

Well now she has gone and she was such a lovely, warm, understanding person and wow everything has changed at the Social Work Department. I had to tell her my life story, so she could get to know me before I got ill and could also see if I meet the Social Work Department’s new criteria. Mr G and I were left with a form to fill out and return as soon as possible. Now we have to think of things that will make my life much better than it is right now. Then once she knows which way everything will go, she will come back and visit again and let us know if I meet their criteria. So be prepared for many more posts, I would love for you all to find out exactly what is going to happen also.

 

Until next time, take care

Mrs G 

Changes that can happen to your life.


Before I was ill, I was able to do so much with friends. Going out, helping at my children’s primary school, having coffee with friends. Attending family get togethers, being able to be at celebrations with family and also with friends.

 

 Then slowly, as I could attend less and less gatherings, the visits from family and friends got less and less. Phone calls also dried up as I could not concentrate on the phone more and more.

 

I recently got so excited when my in laws sent an invitation to their Golden Wedding Anniversary, I was so determined I would attend. I bought myself a new dress and hair dye to hide all the grey hair. Sadly I have to admit I will not be able to attend, but I will make sure Mr G and our youngest daughter will be there. I think our eldest daughter is taking a turn at Mummy-sitting.

 

Not being able to attend made me realise how little contact I have with friends and family any more. It is so sad but something I just need to deal with.

 

I have however made some extremely good friends from online gaming. They have known me since I have been ill and since I have gotten worse. They are always there for me, one more than any other. I have also made a new friend through Mr G and would be lost without her at times.

 

So be prepared, however not everyone loses as much as some, you may lose some friends but I know for certain you will make new friends, who may be able to understand and help you managed your pain and how to get through it one day at a time.

 

Until next time, take care

Mrs G