Who Is That Person In The Mirror?


I found myself having to look in the mirror a few days ago, something I normally avoid at all costs. I looked in but did not have a clue who it was looking back at me.

 

The first thing I noticed was my eyes; they had lost the sparkle that was normally there. Then I looked at my neck, only to see I had no neck anymore. My goitre has swollen so much due to my Thyroid Gland not working properly anymore.

 

Then I saw my body and have to admit I cried. I had been told that some of my medications would make me gain weight. It did seem weird as I am hardly eating at the moment. They really were not joking about the weight gain and of course I cannot exercise very much at the moment. The pain makes it slightly hard and when I am outside, I am in my wheelchair and until I can get a stair lift, I am mainly marooned upstairs. So my exercise is walking to and from the bathroom once a day, as I use my commode in my bedroom the rest of the time.

 

So be prepared, something I never was, that some of your medications will change you on the outside, but as long as your mind and voice is still there, that is all that really matters to begin with.

 

I know as long as I have my mind and voice, I will try my hardest to keep talking and hopefully help at least one person and to let them know they do not need to go through anything alone.

Until next time, take Care,

Mrs G!

P.S. Still good news with giving up smoking. “Touch Wood” it will stay this way!!!

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Time To Stop……Please Wish Me Luck!


I have smoked for over 25 years, only stopping when I was pregnant. I always managed to slip back to smoking after my babies were born, even though I tried hard not to. I also managed to stop smoking about six months ago but when my pain got worse, I again slipped back to smoking.

 

I have finally realised that I really want to stop and waiting for my pain to lessen is a bit futile. So, I have taken the bull by the horns, I have ordered an electronic cigarette kit and I have a really good feeling, that this time I will actually do it, I will manage to stop smoking.

 

So the kit arrived two days ago, I have been getting used to the electronic cigarette, so still have been smoking the normal ones, although a lot less. I have been so surprised how easy it has been getting used to it and have not enjoyed smoking real cigarettes at all anymore.

 

I am about to smoke my last cigarette as I post today’s blog. I am 75% sure that this time, pain being high or not, I can give up smoking and I will put 110% work into making sure I do give up.

 

You may think this a strange post, but I am sure there are other disabled people, like me, in a lot of pain. However, they want to stop smoking but are worried like me, how they will cope with the pain they are in. Maybe by following how I cope with giving up will help.

 

I will add a small paragraph at the end of any future posts to let everyone know I am getting along. So here it goes, it’s 9.15am, Sunday, 11 August 2013 and I have just given up smoking.

Until next time, take care.

Mrs G!

 

When A Little Branch Appears….Hold On!


I have been really down and ill the past couple of weeks, hence why I have not posted as much. Touch wood, however, I think I have hit rock bottom and am starting to climb back up, I am trying not to go too fast, or I may end up crashing back down again.

 

Mr G and  I find ourselves childless for a few days, I think I let go of the I am fine girls honest sign and on the first day I slept on and off all day and night. It did me a lot of good.

 

I don’t know about any of you but my appetite grew legs and left me some time ago now. However, after my long, long sleep, I woke up feeling hungry. This was amazing as it has been so long since I actually wanted to eat. I had some sandwiches around 10am (ish) and then was totally flabbergasted, when around 6.30pm (ish), I again felt hungry, so again I ate. This eating thing is in the very early stages, as it has only happened the past couple of days.

 

I have jumped on to this tiny new branch and am holding on tightly. I really want it to work, for many reasons, one being my tablets may work better and another reason is my bowel may just stop being lazy and work properly again.

 

I am maybe thinking way too fast but just by feeling hungry, which to most people is natural, I can see so many ways it could help me. So I am now clinging for dear life on to this tiny branch, praying it will become stronger, which would make me just that little stronger also.

Take Care

Mrs G